Dammit. gue bad mood abis hari ini. pagi" uda brantem. swt =='
gue benci. kenapa sih cowo slalu kaya gitu. they're selfish. kenapa sih gak bisa ngerti. kenapa? kenapa? kenapa dy slalu lakuin apa yang gue gak suka. kenapa selalu brantem buat hal yang itu" aja. gue musi ngertiin apa maunya dia tapi dy gak perna mau ngertiin apa yang gue gak suka.. capek tau gak kaya gini. tiap weekend gue musi badmood terus. gue tu uda berkali" mikir. gue uda doa. gue uda brusaha buat biasa aja. tapi ttep gak bisa. ergh. gue uda coba cari solusi gue uda ngmgin bae". kenapa sih gak ngehargain kesepakatan??
Dia bisa nyuru gue, dy bisa mohon" ma gue, dy bisa minta sesuatu ma gue. kenapa gue gak bisa?
apa gue yang aneh ya? gue yang terlalu norak? ah. self esteem. every single person are different. gue punya prinsip. gue punya selera dan nilai" tertentu yang gue anggep bner yang mgkin dy anggep gak bener ato sebaliknya. kenapa?? kenapa sih? gue capek tau gak. gue capek mrasa kaya gini terus. bisa gak sih sekali aja mikirin prasaan orang? kamu gak bisa memperlakukan cewe kaya gitu. just now, i remebered what they said soo yesterday.
gue berkali" mempertimbangkan untuk break up, tapi i can't. dammit. it's so damn hard to say break up. but, trust me, kallo gue uda gak tahan lagi dan gue uda meledak gue bakal ngmg kata" itu. slama ni gue masi sabar gue gak tega gue ngampunin. orang" blg gue terlalu sabar. yupp that's me. mungkin ada yang mkir gue bego bgt. hey people,this is my life.. i believe in my decision. i know what i've done. i know all of my actions have consequences. Geezz, i'm a type of person who hard to fall in love. really. maybe easy to get a crush but not easy to fall in love. who you are? how can i fall in lave with you? OMG T.T
hmm gue gak nyalahin Tuhan. Tuhan memberikan kehendak bebas buat kita. Thank You Lord for my life. if i can, i want to damn restart my life all over again from zero. aahh..
my future goal is: out from indonesia and start my life again. i'd love to. ah gila ini manifestasi dari masalah tadi pagi. swt.
aahh oke deh gada abisnya kalo gue omongin disini. blog emang tempat curhat yang oke, grr
God please gimme more strength to face this damn problem :( ♥
22.8.09
Dammit. gue bad mood abis hari ini. pagi" uda brantem. swt =='
gue benci. kenapa sih cowo slalu kaya gitu. they're selfish. kenapa sih gak bisa ngerti. kenapa? kenapa? kenapa dy slalu lakuin apa yang gue gak suka. kenapa selalu brantem buat hal yang itu" aja. gue musi ngertiin apa maunya dia tapi dy gak perna mau ngertiin apa yang gue gak suka.. capek tau gak kaya gini. tiap weekend gue musi badmood terus. gue tu uda berkali" mikir. gue uda doa. gue uda brusaha buat biasa aja. tapi ttep gak bisa. ergh. gue uda coba cari solusi gue uda ngmgin bae". kenapa sih gak ngehargain kesepakatan??
Dia bisa nyuru gue, dy bisa mohon" ma gue, dy bisa minta sesuatu ma gue. kenapa gue gak bisa?
apa gue yang aneh ya? gue yang terlalu norak? ah. self esteem. every single person are different. gue punya prinsip. gue punya selera dan nilai" tertentu yang gue anggep bner yang mgkin dy anggep gak bener ato sebaliknya. kenapa?? kenapa sih? gue capek tau gak. gue capek mrasa kaya gini terus. bisa gak sih sekali aja mikirin prasaan orang? kamu gak bisa memperlakukan cewe kaya gitu. just now, i remebered what they said soo yesterday.
gue berkali" mempertimbangkan untuk break up, tapi i can't. dammit. it's so damn hard to say break up. but, trust me, kallo gue uda gak tahan lagi dan gue uda meledak gue bakal ngmg kata" itu. slama ni gue masi sabar gue gak tega gue ngampunin. orang" blg gue terlalu sabar. yupp that's me. mungkin ada yang mkir gue bego bgt. hey people,this is my life.. i believe in my decision. i know what i've done. i know all of my actions have consequences. Geezz, i'm a type of person who hard to fall in love. really. maybe easy to get a crush but not easy to fall in love. who you are? how can i fall in lave with you? OMG T.T
hmm gue gak nyalahin Tuhan. Tuhan memberikan kehendak bebas buat kita. Thank You Lord for my life. if i can, i want to damn restart my life all over again from zero. aahh..
my future goal is: out from indonesia and start my life again. i'd love to. ah gila ini manifestasi dari masalah tadi pagi. swt.
aahh oke deh gada abisnya kalo gue omongin disini. blog emang tempat curhat yang oke, grr
God please gimme more strength to face this damn problem :( 
